2 by wallace_f | 4 comments on Hacker News.
Perhaps everyone has some amount of tyranny or injustice in their life and I went through mine; and on the other side of it I've ended up with years of near-unemployment and daily compulsive behaviors which treat my depression, anger. These include: extremely long video game sessions, drinking, phone and web addiction, gambling, wake therapy, pornography and masturbation, and compulsive travelling. I'm not sure how to manage myself at the moment. My ability to apply myself productively diminished after my traumatic experiences, and it continues to diminish in a negative feedback cycle of the above coping mechanisms. In other words, I have little gumption at the moment. All my enthusiasm is tied up in escaping my negative traumas and giving myself a pleasurable existence. When I try to get myself to send a resume or study a new skill, all of my traumatic experiences seem to surface and overwhelm me. If you have been through something similar, what changes did you make which helped you? By the way I have seen a professional therapist and psychiatrist before. Unfortunately, these were not really productive experiences, and I've come to be inclined to think these suggestions might be helpful but might also be a little bit canned. I care deeply about necessary virtue in the world, but I don't care about taking care of myself anymore. This has led me to being primed for constant stimulation, therapies and I'm struggling to get back into a pattern of productively applying myself. Have you been through something similar?
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